Saturday 24 January 2009

first work ,first snow .




now the concept of us back home is like the foreign countries are just covered with snow and is all white just like in the movies we see everyday , they have snow man and they play with snow balls every day , well i would like to change that .. no its is not like that at all .. it just snowed here in Edinburgh may be 3 or 4 times thats it .. it became a little white for only one time which is the only time i actually had to walk in the street for almost all the time it was snowing .. it was my first time to touch , see , walk and feel snow .. i could believe it .. all my black coat was covered with white things called snow flakes .. heheheh , it was wet .. yuckyyyy... begad i was pushing it away from me not to wet my clothes and it easily comes off my coat , but the problem that it sticks to the floor and u just have to walk so slowly in order not to slip and fall . and make sure not to step in watery snow .. ( i did that , my shoes was full of water ,,,yaaaaaaa) .
well this is the real day that i appreciated my amazing most wonderful ,adorable great ,precious ,diamond , my TOTA ,Kordelina my savior from all this marmata . fenek ya tota we feen ayamak . konty satrany wallahy . hehehehehe , now i sound like an old woman wining for her lost youth ..

as for work... see applying for work here is not as easy at it seems , tried looking for a nice decent part time job to go with my studies and not successful eventually i found this technician job which is men ela7'er keda 3amel with an art gallery . then i said well what the hell ,, technician better than nothing . then i went to start my work and i realized that i am a junior technician which is saby 3amel isa .. hehehe .. and my senior technician is a nice looking lady ( a female ) who graduated from Brighton university (this is a very good uni here ) and she did her masters degree in my university Edinburgh college of art in sculpture .. soooooooooooo shofto el rayesa beta3ty shaklaha eih ... my senior technician here we go , that day i worked all the work technicians do , simple like that i painted belforsha we elgardal , i hammered stuff belshakoosh we 3elbet elmasabeer , ooohhh and the best part .. sand blast ... which is belbalady keda elsanfara isa ..
see an Egyptian technician is well i am sad to say that he is not as fortunate as me or my senior nice lady , he is a different class and with different style of life and definitely u never see a female in this field of work ,education ........mmmmmmm well we say in Egypt which is the translation words "the market or field teaches u its technics" elsoo2 ye3alemak elsan3a . as for here people who work are well educated people not really that poor but they know the techinics and they can do the job so why not . they never look at it as the low class /high class level thing as most of us do.
we say ( or at least i used to say when i was back home ) we need a multi national organization job and a salary with this and so and so and the list goes on . well doesnt work like that everywhere .

on the other hand we have free education actually , if u compare it to here .. education in Egypt is free and here is soooooooo expensive ppl here borrow money and keep paying back for years and years after they graduate .
so let me say i have learned and i hope my experience will help others understand how life is different from each perspective , it doesnt matter who we are ,doesnt matter were we come from or whats our backgrounds, we might find ourselves doing things we never imagined we will do just because its a new world and a new life that we have to fit in .we have to open mined and flexible to grasp the change and accept it also live it happily .

Saturday 17 January 2009

sex and the city


i know this title might seem odd ,but today i have watched the movie "sex and the city" and somehow it touched me deeply, i am not sure whether the fact of the amazingly bonded 4 friends or that sometimes there is someone who can fight for ur love no matter what .
as for friends seeing what these 4 girls done to each other reminded me of how i had a great group back home , whenever we used to feel bad its ok to just jump in the street and go to each other or hang out escaping from whatever we feared or hated .i have passed some hard times in the past but i never felt they were that hard ,u know why because i had some one to take me under their arms and say "it will be OK ,i am here for u don't worry ,shit happens, we can fix this together" . being here in UK i had a harsh time one day ,was my first harsh one actually , when i wept myself till agony got into me i went to some one and talked to , that someone didn't even feel or see i was in agony , that made me value what i had before , people who if heard ur voice will know there is something wrong and will rush for your comfort.(luckily that i had comfort that day on the words of an unexpected person ,whom i thank greatly for that).

i remember how i used to travel from one city to another -with lame excuses for my mam- just to see " shelet el bakabortat " ,heheheehe ,the noisiest,funniest most annoying group ever , you can actually hear us all talking in the same second and we perfectly understand each other ,its miraculous i know but that's our miracle ,that's us .
whenever i am in town we were together making the best time out of it .whenever i needed help i went and found relief and happiness . they always knew how to get anything out of anyone .weekends and our fabulous Thursday when we always always had to go out in my TOTA (miss u too TOTA ) and we have to for sure have a blast time which will make u appreciate life and the beauty of it .
every day i also has this wonderful distant friend whom joined me lately in my group and she loved them all , my sweet sis ,let me say that u can find friendship really hard sometimes but not everything is as perfect as it always should be .
now we come to the someone who fights for u .here should come my story with the no fighting person ,some day i believed that love might exist though i had this concept of love being an illusion, seeing how BIG ( the guy in the movie ) fought for CARY in unconventional ways made me think if actually a fighting person exists in the real world ,where he can just say here i am and no matter happens i am a keeper.u never know .
here ends the story of today ..sorry it was long but i am excited about it i assume .
to all whom i ever loved and cared for i still do love and care and miss every moment ...

see u again in my new post .

my first blog post

hello hello .

now this feels a little weird since i never actually wrote any blogs before and i feel strange about that , but i am feeling that i want to say something and i guess here i can . i am not talking to myself anymore and even if i am then its ok . will be glad to .